Hermana Evans

Peru Lima North Mission


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What shall I do?

Sometimes in our efforts to become closer to God and to know him better, we get a little confused. We get things wrong. It’s a completely normal thing. We are still figuring things out, as human beings. We’re not perfect yet and sometimes it takes us a bit to know what works and what doesn’t. Much like King Lamoni’s father, getting to know God, to receive the joy that comes from the gospel takes a sacrifice of ourselves and our desires. Sometimes we may make an offering of very external things. I’ll give up my tv shows, or I’ll pay extra tithing or fast offerings, etc. What the Lord requires sometimes is a little deeper. It has to cost something. Like King Lamoni’s father says in Alma 22, “I will give away all my sins to know thee.” This is the kind of sacrifice that takes a little bit more of ourselves. This is more eternal and personal.

For me, this is something that is a little harder and I’m not as willing to do, natural (wo)man that I am. But the times I do, I realize that my life is so much better and that I can feel much closer to my Heavenly Father than before.


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Trust

“You need to trust Jesus more”

This line echoed through my mind as I thought about the tears that were spilt the night before. It was one of those weeks. Drowning in midterms. Figuring out what I was to do with my life. Typical mid-semester crisis with so many questions. Will I make it into PA school? Will I get married before I leave BYU? If so, where will I go to school? Where will I live? Why can’t I get a job? How will I plan my schedule next semester? How can I plan it and still have time to get a job? Will I even have time to work? What if I don’t get the grades I want this semester? etc.

As a friend lovingly reminded me, there is only so much we have in our control. The rest we leave to God to help us figure out. I’m a planner. I’m a doer. The idea that there are things I cannot do and plan sometimes drives me a little crazy.

But I love the comfort that comes when we can finally just let go and hand it over to God.

Sometimes the Lord tries us and doesn’t give us the big picture all the time. This tries our patience and our faith, as stated in Mosiah 23:21. When we put our trust in him, he will make us stronger to bear the things that worry and burden us. The reality of life and the trial may not go away, but we have an increased capacity to be able to do it all. Knowing this, it is a lot easier to say, look, “I can’t do everything by myself, but I am willing to allow thee to help me to get it done the way thou would have me do it.”

When we do this we see that the Lord “[hushes] our fears” to the point where the things that once so easily beset us now are burdens we so easily carry.


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The Everlasting Father

I loved what we talked about this week in our Book of Mormon class. We discussed the different roles of fathers that we have in our lives. Given that the definition of father is “one who gives life”, we discovered that we have multiple fathers throughout our existence. Of course we have our Heavenly Father and our Earthly Father, who are the fathers of our spirits and our bodies. There are some interesting scriptures that also refers to Christ as a father to us. In Isaiah, he is referred to as the “Everlasting Father”. In Mosiah 5:7, it reads that “because of the covenant which ye have made ye shall be called the children of Christ, his sons, and is daughters; for behold this day he hath spiritually begotten you; for ye say that your hearts are hanged through faith on his name; therefore ye are born of him and have become his sons and his daughters”.

This doctrine can appear strange at first, because we are so used to hearing that Christ is our brother, and while that is true, when we understand how Christ is also our Father, our relationships with all of our fathers becomes heightened and sweetened. Because of the covenants we make, such as baptism, receiving the gift of the Holy Ghost, and other ordinances we receive in the temple, we enter into His order, and become members of His fold. He is the father of our spiritual rebirth.

With these ordinances, we are permitted to enter into the presence of God one day, and live with our family members, both physical and spiritual, for all of eternity. If we don’t accept Christ as our father, and without those covenants, our relationships with our Heavenly Father and earthly father are diminished.

What stuck out to me more, was the idea of our mothers as well. We know we have a Heavenly Mother and and earthly mother, but who is the mother in the rebirth with Christ? In the Bible it compares Christ to the bridegroom and the church as his bride. It is a beautiful symbolism when you think of the nurturing, guiding, counseling, loving nature that is associated with both mothers and a church. Embracing our parents (symbolically, of course) in this way, will help us along the path that will lead us to eternal life with all of our family members. To me this just goes to show on how important the family is to God, and how it is the most basic and fundamental unit that can exist and was created.


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How to be Mighty

If you’re like me, you often times feel like you are at the end of your line. You feel like you’ve done everything you can, and yet you still fall short of doing everything you’re expected to do. You know that God gives weakness so we can be humble and return to him, but sometimes you wonder why does it have to be so hard? Why can’t I just move on with this? Why can’t I get through this obstacle? Or why can’t I help a loved one see the light of the gospel?

I think it is very normal to feel these things, and we can learn from some of the greatest prophets that it is part of our mortal experiences to feel like we fall short of a lot of things. After all, it is not by our merits, but Christ’s, that we will obtain anything at all.

I loved what Nephi said in 2 Nephi 33. He was obviously a very great speaker, but felt like he fell short in many ways. He felt that he was much more mighty in speaking, because he felt like through speaking, he could speak through the spirit, to bring them message unto the hearts of the people. Honestly, I feel like understanding how the spirit is key to understanding how we can become mighty and do things that we couldn’t do for ourselves. Through the power of the spirit, God can work his atonement on us. We are cleansed by the spirit, we receive power through the spirit, we can learn to talk with the tongue of angels through the spirit, and though the spirit, we will be able to know and be shown all things.

As I have lived to have the spirit with me, I have noticed an extra power to do things and perceive things that were definitely beyond my own capability. It is a power so understood, in my opinion, and holds the key to unlocking some of God’s power that we can use on this earth.


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Tender Nudgings

This week was full of little teachings about the atonement. I have had a huge desire to serve others this past week and was guided through the spirit to specific people I was meant to serve this week. One of those things was work and extra shift at the temple. I had a lot of study time and I read a passage in Mosiah that sincerely touched me. It is found in Mosiah 27:28-29. Alma is telling his story about what he experienced those several days he was unconscious and suffering the pains of hell. His experience resonated with me because I have also felt may of the things he felt, “wading through much tribulation”, “gall of bitterness”, and being in the “bonds of iniquity”. What I loved about this scripture is that he works and prays and tries to repent, even “nigh unto death”. What finally relives him from his pain was the Lord’s mercy. It wasn’t even Alma that got himself out of that state. We cannot do enough to even repent fully of our sins. It is only through the grace and merits of Jesus Christ that we can hope to repent and be lifted from our sinners state. It made me extremely grateful for the atonement and it made me realize that I really can’t do anything with out him. And only through him I can do anything. I thought of my own past experiences and realized that it is true. I suffered through much pain, but was delivered through Christ’s ability to allow forgiveness and healing through his atonement.