Hermana Evans

Peru Lima North Mission


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How to be Mighty

If you’re like me, you often times feel like you are at the end of your line. You feel like you’ve done everything you can, and yet you still fall short of doing everything you’re expected to do. You know that God gives weakness so we can be humble and return to him, but sometimes you wonder why does it have to be so hard? Why can’t I just move on with this? Why can’t I get through this obstacle? Or why can’t I help a loved one see the light of the gospel?

I think it is very normal to feel these things, and we can learn from some of the greatest prophets that it is part of our mortal experiences to feel like we fall short of a lot of things. After all, it is not by our merits, but Christ’s, that we will obtain anything at all.

I loved what Nephi said in 2 Nephi 33. He was obviously a very great speaker, but felt like he fell short in many ways. He felt that he was much more mighty in speaking, because he felt like through speaking, he could speak through the spirit, to bring them message unto the hearts of the people. Honestly, I feel like understanding how the spirit is key to understanding how we can become mighty and do things that we couldn’t do for ourselves. Through the power of the spirit, God can work his atonement on us. We are cleansed by the spirit, we receive power through the spirit, we can learn to talk with the tongue of angels through the spirit, and though the spirit, we will be able to know and be shown all things.

As I have lived to have the spirit with me, I have noticed an extra power to do things and perceive things that were definitely beyond my own capability. It is a power so understood, in my opinion, and holds the key to unlocking some of God’s power that we can use on this earth.

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Tender Nudgings

This week was full of little teachings about the atonement. I have had a huge desire to serve others this past week and was guided through the spirit to specific people I was meant to serve this week. One of those things was work and extra shift at the temple. I had a lot of study time and I read a passage in Mosiah that sincerely touched me. It is found in Mosiah 27:28-29. Alma is telling his story about what he experienced those several days he was unconscious and suffering the pains of hell. His experience resonated with me because I have also felt may of the things he felt, “wading through much tribulation”, “gall of bitterness”, and being in the “bonds of iniquity”. What I loved about this scripture is that he works and prays and tries to repent, even “nigh unto death”. What finally relives him from his pain was the Lord’s mercy. It wasn’t even Alma that got himself out of that state. We cannot do enough to even repent fully of our sins. It is only through the grace and merits of Jesus Christ that we can hope to repent and be lifted from our sinners state. It made me extremely grateful for the atonement and it made me realize that I really can’t do anything with out him. And only through him I can do anything. I thought of my own past experiences and realized that it is true. I suffered through much pain, but was delivered through Christ’s ability to allow forgiveness and healing through his atonement.


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Missionary Work

The Lord has taught me many things this week. I was asked to give a talk on how to be a missionary at BYU after my mission. When I got the assignment I felt instantly guilty because I felt like after a year and half of complete service I haven’t done anything these past 4-5 months of being at home. I dove into my scripture study in I Nephi 21 and I felt like the scriptures were opened up to me about how we can be missionaries and serve our brothers and sisters. The chapter starts out in verse one saying, “And again: Hearken, O ye house of Israel, all ye that are broken off and are driven out because of the wickedness of the pastors of my people…”

I see this verse as explaining who we can serve and do missionary work for. We have all been scattered in one way or another. In Spanish pastor renders as a shepherd. Looking at it this way, the wickedness of the shepherds can literally be wicked priests or pastors that contributed to the apostasy, or, contrasting to the antitheses to the good shepherd, Satan is the most wicked one of all. I believe that encompasses all those who transgress and are scattered from the fold of God by sin.

That chapter unfolds and talks about how God will give us for a light unto the gentiles, or those outside of the covenant, so that we can bring His salvation to all the ends of the earth. (see vs 6) This is a classic missionary work scripture.

What I love most is what it talks about in verse 22. It says, “Behold, I will lift up mine hand to the Gentiles, and set up my standard to the people; and they shall bring thy sons in their arms, and thy daughters shall be carried upon their shoulders.”

To me this is just the perfect rendition of what service is. The imagery of picking up and carrying up God’s children on our shoulders is so beautiful. We literally have charge over them and it is definitely how I feel when I do service towards others.


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That One Question

So this week has been a roller coaster for me. So many emotions. I have made some pretty big decisions this week that will affect me and my eternal progression in a big way.

I went to class with a lot of questions but was comforted by a scripture in 1 Nephi 17:1-3. It explains how Nephi was instructed to build a ship. We are all building ships at some point and this week I had a pretty big one that was troubling me. Sometimes we don’t get all the instructions at first. But from time to time, we receive bits and pieces, little visions on what we’re supposed to do next and how we’re to do it. Sometimes we receive instructions and wait for more, maybe because we’re not willing to do what was asked of us.

What I love about the way Nephi went about building a ship was the trust and confidence he had in the Lord that as he went to Him, he received little by little. His faith was so much that as he prayed often, the Lord showed unto him great things. This is something that I have been trying to do recently as I was thrown into a crazy week where suddenly everything I knew and thought was turned upside down. But as I have been taking it one step at a time, I could see my vision getting clearer and I have been able to see a little bit more and more what I am supposed to do right now with this ship.


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One year later….

So… this has not been the best kept blog that has been created. I know. You’re all wondering what happened me after I left my first area.

Should’ve followed my emails.

Well, the mission was amazing. I finished in May. Someday I will get around to posting the rest of my mission letters and then you can read to your heart’s content about how I broke my foot, served in family history, and baptized a genie.

But for now, I am studying at BYU right now and loving it. It’s good to be back. I am currently in a Book of Mormon class with my favorite professor ever, Brother Griffin. He has inspired me once again to open my mouth and help others understand just how wonderful and personal and joyful this gospel is.

Learning about the gospel is a lifelong process. If you have questions and aren’t sure about certain points of doctrine about the church and its teachings, let me be the first to tell you: IT’S OK.

I certainly don’t know and understand everything, which for me is more exciting than daunting. I love studying and learning more through the spirit.

The most significant part of the gospel to me is neither the perplexity of the content nor the vastness of the mysteries of God, but rather just how personal and simple it is on a day to day basis.

What I love as we start out the Book of Mormon, though it may be one of the most complex and deep books ever written, it starts out with just a simple family, much like ones most of us have been born into. This family is commanded to leave everything they have and to go into the wilderness to an unknown destination for an undetermined amount of time. Those with amazing faith would have been stoked at such an idea. I consider myself to have some good amount of faith. What goes through my head: God is good and he will help me get through this! This will be easy cause I know he wants me to do it! I can get into school I need to go to, I can get straight As, dating will be temptation free and so easy and fun. I’m supposed to get married right? Have an eternal family? Commanded to get a good education? Done!

If His purpose was to get Lehi’s family to the promised land, it would have been that easy. If God’s only purpose was to give me everything I could want/need, he totally could have. It would have been that easy.

There was no fully stocked caravan of camels waiting outside their doorstep. Zoram wasn’t told by an angel to meet them there with the brass plates. Ishmael didn’t get a dream to take his family out and to meet up with Lehi in the wilderness. There was not boat waiting for them. There was no feast nor comfortable living conditions.

So why do I expect my wildernesses and my journeys to be the same?

They worked and toiled and cried and many times did not know where they were going and when they would get there.There were sicknesses, trials, deaths, inter-familiar conflicts, anger, resentment, afflictions for them in the wilderness. God didn’t make it easy for them. God wouldn’t be a loving Heavenly Father if there weren’t some setbacks.

But if it were his purpose for us to become something, it would have looked a little more like that.

I know what the wilderness is like. I have been through many on my own. I’m going through some now. Earth life itself is a wilderness we are commanded to go through. It will not be free of trials and bumps in the road. But that’s OK. I am much more concerned about who I am becoming than exactly how I get there. It is so good to be so grateful for the journeys we are put through because it shows that God loves us so much to allow us to rely on Him and draw close to Him.

 

 


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Week 26

This week was kind of hard. Almost every one of our appointments this week fell through and only one of the people that said they were going to go to church actually went. Nevertheless, we are still working hard and trying to keep our animos high (stay encouraged) so that we can find lots of new people who will progress. Right now we are in the process of enlarging our banco de familias so we can find the people that are being prepared and focus on them.

I love the new emphasis on asking references to everyone we teach. We have seen a change when we do this, and have had a lot more references. We are in the process of finding them and teaching them now! A lot of them have a lot of potencial. The biggest struggle is finding them after the first visit.

But we have had some success with one of our investigators, Gerson Hildago. It´s taken the work of previous sisters, and lots of patience, but we have seen some awesome progress with him. Every time we see him he is a bit different and more converted. We will sacar la fecha (set a date) this week with him for sure!

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I found vanilla coke! Now I just need a Rubios burrito….. 26 - Vanilla Coke


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Week 25

So not much to say this week. We are working super hard to find new people. We had to stop teaching a lot of people because they just weren’t progressing and we are trying to find a lot of new people here. We had a reference from our bishop about a less active woman and her spouse.. no se como se dice en ingles… no son casados {they aren’t married}. We started teaching him and oh man talk about a hard heart but they went to church this week and we know that he already knows it’s true but just hasn’t admitted it yet to himself. He wants to feel what we feel, is what he says. That he can talk with the passion that we have when we bear our testimonies, but were trying to help him understand that faith starts small and with time and dedication to prayer, reading the scriptures, and going to church he can feel the same way too. We got their information and they committed to get married at the end of the month!!!!!! Pray so that his papers can get here in time. He’s from the selva {jungle} (oh yeah iquitos!!) and the last time the missionaries tried to get them married they didn’t ever come.

My comp is awesome and I love that there are trees here! Talk to you all later!

First time I saw grass in my mission!! San Felipe is awesome!! It has trees too!!!!

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25 - San Felipe Grass